Letting you in on a secret

Even now ... one year on .. some days are hard.
Yesterday for example. Yesterday I wanted chocolate bad. No idea why ... I just wanted it.
And I'm not talking the small controlled have a few squares and get on with it craving.
I wanted it in bulk.

Yesterday I got to my favourite class - step.
And my heart wasn't in it.

Yesterday I was lucky to get one on one time for free with the pilates instructor to help with my core and stretching - and I was full of the I can'ts.

Last week I was 100% fully decided I hated running and was going to give it up.
Serious.
It didn't feel fun and I didn't feel good enough.

And we won't even talk about my blasted plateau.

But you can't give in.
You are going to have days like that.
Heck - you might sometimes have weeks like that.

All I did was follow the motions.
I still ate well.
I counted my calories.
I went through the motions at training, turned up and gave my all.
I just did what Mish tells me to - no more no less.

And then you get days like today. Days when the sun comes out.
Days when your heart feels free!!

Today is a good day!
Today I ran.
Today I ate well.
Today I was busy and productive and although I'm still not caught up with life I'm on my way.

But most of all I am proud I didn't give in.
Some days you are going to feel down.

These are the days that test us ...
But these are the days that show how far we have come