Drawng that line ...

I've come a long way baby.

This woman is no longer. I can't even imagine being her anymore.

She is so far from where I am that I KNOW I cannot and will not go back.

I've had several days lately that my body has forced me to rest.

To let it recover
(stupid cold )
It has driven me bonkers. I just want to move.

For that I am grateful.

But do you know, I don't think right now I am this woman either.


Today I am not the woman who feels awesome and confident and happy with how she looks.

I have had many many excuses this round. Most of them valid (some maybe not!).
This round I haven't been able to hit the goals I set. I haven't lost the weight I've aimed for ... and I haven't maintained the strength I had.

Right now today I am not the woman I was on this day. I doubt I would have the physical strength right now to do advanced , nor the confidence to dive into the mud and just do it.

And you know what happened??
I got complacent.

Yes - I have had big external excuses this round. I've had illness, family worries, death, stress ... life has tested me for sure.

And I HAVE kept running. I DID run Gold Coast. I HAVEN'T gone back to were I was.

But I did get complacent.
I didn't keep challenging myself.
I did allow junk back into my diet.
I didn't watch my portion sizes.
I dropped my PT sessions - and I miss them.
I have gone out for coffee ... and let it lead to cake too many times.

I got complacent. I relaxed. I decided I would fix it when those external stressors went ... and 8 weeks on .. I still haven't fixed things.

Even with the world falling apart there are things I could have done. I am not going to cry poor me and say it's not my fault.
I am also not going to take all the blame on me either and fall into a screaming heap.

This isn't about beating myself up. This is about stopping. Drawing a line in the sand, and saying enough is enough. Things are going to change.

Today is that day.

I know what to do to become that woman again. I know how to make the change. And I know how to fix it.
And starting today I will.

The line has been drawn.
This is not about being skinny, or fitting into size 10 jeans.
This is about being the me I want to be.
I want to be strong.
I want to feel good.
I want to take on the world ... and I know I will.

I'm drawing the line. The journey starts again.
Watch this space. Big things are about to happen






I've come a long way baby.








This woman is no longer. I can't even imagine being her anymore.

















I've had several days lately that my body has forced me to rest.








To let it recover








(stupid cold )

















It has driven me bonkers. I just want to move.