Just a few simple words ... But a big lesson ahead ...

I met Mish today. How cool is that? After 24kg and truly changing and saving my life I met Mish.

To hear her speak was extraordinary. I'll blog about that later when I get my notes together. But let's just say when mish tells you to do squats and to do them deeper you do.

She signed my book. I didn't watch her ... We were too busy talking of how things had changed.

Look hard at what she wrote.

I deserve it.

This loss didn't happen by chance. I worked hard. I deserve it.

I deserve all I have gotten. Health, energy, vitality ... I deserve it.

In the past I would have used those words differently.

I can gave a treat ... A drink ... A break ... I deserve it. What was I really getting? A lifetime of I'll health, sadness,a me I didn't need to be.

Somedays I get compliments on my journey. Somedays I smash massive goals and start to revert back into old ways ... Sabotaging my efforts with "treats" because "I deserve it"

But I don't. I deserve to be my best me. Fit. Healthy. Strong.

This is going to be my mantra. I am going to tell myself I DO deserve it until I believe it as a truth.

Thank you mish.

Much love xxx

I need to move

Running by the water soothes my soul . Xxx.



Attempt #2 at my SSS was much improved.

Running by the water , at sunset with my husband.

Love. Xxx





Thanks to all who encouraged me after this morning. It meant the world

The run that was bad ... And the lesson within

Today is super saturday.

Today is the day of the week we are to do a smash up intense workout and bash a whole heap of calories out of the park.

Problem is ... I feel like crud.

I have doms in every muscle (how the heck did i get doms in my forearms??) i feel tired, i feel flat, and i have a headache.

But i got up, got dressed, made sure i was hydrated and ran.

Just a few minutes into the run i knew it wasnt going to happen.

It might have been a mindset .... Maybe i talked myself out of it before i began .... But it was such an effort to even move and it made my head go bang bang bang

So i stopped. And turned to walk home.

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And then the victory occurred. I might not be able to run right now but i sure can walk!

All the way to soccer to watch my girl play. It might have only been 100cal burned ... But it was good clear thinking time. It gave my body a chnace to stretch out some of the aches, and i did something!!!

To me that is a victory! If i went home not only would i not have burned those calories ... But who knows what i would have eaten cause i was disappointed with myself???

And the day is still young. I am going to nap. Recover. Go somewhere new and pretty .... And see if i can smash out that run tonight!!!

Do you know why i feel great today?

Ok ... Besides the fact that I'm not in gym clothes for the first time in forever??




Today rocks because it's almost winter. And it's boot weather. And for the first time in pretty much forever i can wear regular person's long boots and do them up!!!!

Rocks!!!!

(oh and because for years i found wearing stockings/tights to be stupidly uncomfortable. They would cut in. They would roll down. They woud fall down all day. Now they feel great! Long boots and tights! My wardrobe is looking a whole heap more fun this winter!)

I've decided it's official ...

My personal trainer is insane.

The wall ball squats hurt but i can do them.

The ab work hurts ... But i know i have to harden up and do it.

When she had me doing assisted chin ups i thought she was crazy but went with it...

But...

Burpee -jumping chin up combo??

Insane!!!

Totally insane.

Guess that's why i pay her right;)

I'm converting to imperial!

Doesn't it sound more impressive to say i have lost overe 50lb???

That's all :)

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Today is a big day ...

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Not for me .. for Miss E

She had cross country today - and overcame a big fear of doing new things to run really well!

AND she progressed up a grade in swimming lessons!

So proud of my girl!