The courage to start

Blessed xxx

2012-02-14T17:23:00.001-08:00

Things have been quiet on the blog lately

I know. I'm sorry.

My mind has been busy trying to balance our news - with life in general. Blogging took a back seat.

Time to finally share our news tho!

The (not so secret) anymore news is that Miss E is FINALLY expecting a baby brother or sister! (FINALLY - is her thoughts exactly!)

We are blessed.

Having children does not come easily to us, but God willing, this little one seems to be hanging on.

I am still training.

I am still (trying) to eat well.

And oh so nicely Mish has provided a pregnancy plan this round!

We are overwhelmed and thrilled.

I can't wait to share with you my journey to trying to manage a healthy fit pregnancy ... and beyond.

Much love xxx

New rule?

2012-02-03T11:51:00.001-08:00

What do you reckon?

New Bootcamp rule??

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I'm back ..... :)

2012-01-28T14:59:00.000-08:00

I'll tell you a secret. I wasn't going to join this round.

And honestly -I'm not sure it's essential I do.

But I want to.

My best friend is going to rock this round.

My little country town has a very enthusiastic group growing! I want to play too!

I LOVE the convenience of being able to pick up my workouts and menus off my iPhone and to not have to think - just do.

And quite frankly - Paul and I have some changes in our lives right now that mean I am making things as easy as possible. And 12wbt does that.

I don't have to menu plan. Mish does it for me.

I don't have to think about my shopping or my eating or my training.

The hard work is done.

This round is a little different for me.

It's truly not about weight loss.

But it IS about being the best version of me I can be!

And that right now means being as fit and strong and healthy as I can so I can cope with a very busy year for us!

So I am IN!! If you are two - leave me a comment - let me know who you are so I can follow you on the forums!

And thank you all so much for being patient as I neglected my blog.

I needed some time off - but I am back and ready to blog with a different perspective.

It's going to be a fun round!

Merry christmas!!

2011-12-24T13:15:00.001-08:00

It's 7am, Santa has been, and I've had my Christmas morning run.

It's the most beautiful day to run here ... The sun is out .. The breeze is cool.

I am so grateful for this gift. A little bit of time for me in a very busy day. Some calm in the chaos.

Running is MY time

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Christmas eve run

2011-12-23T14:53:00.001-08:00

5 k done

I knew it would be slow but it was really slow!!

Thanks for the humidity Brisbane!

The walk in the rain after was nice tho xxx

Happy Christmas eve

May you find peace in the chaos xxx

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Resting. . By order of my body.

2011-12-23T00:45:00.000-08:00

I still have to tell you about yesterday's smash up training session ... the result of me egging on my trainer to kill me.

It was hard. I didn't vomit. There were no tears. But it was close.

He is learning how hard to push me. It's killing me (in a fun making me awesome kind of way!)

But now is not the time for that.

Right now - in amidst the 7 million things to do - my body is screaming for rest.

And despite the fact I would like to go hard, get my life organised and had planned two more training sessions before Christmas - I am listening to it.

My body is serving me well. It is strong. It is healthy. It is coping with early mornings, late nights, and night shifts.

It is letting me run. Jump. Lift.

But now it is plum worn out.

In the past I would have gotten stressed, fought my way through and ended up a right royal mess.

Not this time.

My body is screaming for rest.
I'm going to listen.

Rehydrate. Good food. Sleep. Stretching.

Just what my body ordered.

Today ...

2011-12-21T03:37:00.001-08:00

Today i finally took time to pamper myself. To thank my body for every step, every rep, every lift ... All the sweat it has gone through to get me here.

Today i stopped in the midst of the christmas rush for me!

I must admit I felt pretty good even before the day began.

I fit into my skinniest pants ... And I felt kinda cute!

First up coffee with a friend ...

Then shellac manicure ...

And a pedicure too! Nothing says Christmas like red toenails!!

Then finally, the highlight for me! A body scrub and massage, using a voucher given to me by two dear 12wbt friends.

It was perfect.

Training, work, life, and night shift has me tired at the moment.

This forced me to stop.

And just as the massage began , the rain pelted down outside.

I swear i fell asleep ... More than once.

It was just what iI needed. Calming, restorative, relaxing, and gave me time out in the world.

I think this might be my new Christmas tradition. Pampering to thank my body for all it does for me ... While the rest of the world drowns in Christmas madness outside
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It's on!

2011-12-21T01:48:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is my last pt session of 2011.

I would say the challenge has been set.

Bring on the thrashing!

Blown away ... and so - so honoured

2011-12-20T14:00:00.001-08:00

I had a little secret on finale night. One that was killing me to hide from my friends who I spent the weekend with.
Days before finale I had learned I would be honoured on stage as one of the top 20 transformation finalists.

My losses - although life changing - have been spread across rounds. And they aren't as huge as so many others. So I knew I could not be up for a physical transformation.

I also really did not think I would win an award. I was excited enough to be able to be on stage - and maybe just once thank Mish again for all she has done.

But I was suprised beyond my wildest dreams! Not only did I win a prize, I won a prize as blogger award for round 3.

When I started blogging it was just for me. And maybe a few friends to give me a kick in the pants occasionally.

It was my story - just the life of a country town chick trying to get her head sorted and her body right.

It wasn't anything special. I fail a lot. I struggle. I have laughs. And I love my training. But I am far from perfect.

My blog is my heart on a plate. I share my ups, my downs ... (and my successes rather proudly too!)

I tell my story - and I really hope I can pay it forward. I hope that some other mum reads it and realises she can change not only her life - but her children's lives too.

I write so that shift workers can realise that yes shift work bites. But we can still be fit, strong and healthy.

I write so that other women getting rather too close to 40 can see that we can be strong. We can lift. We can run. We can do extraordinary things. And we do. Every single day.

My blog is my heart on a plate. To have it recognised made me feel very very special.

And I got to see Mish. And thank her. Again.

And share the stage with ROCKSTARS. You keep your popstars, sportstars and celebrities. These are the people I want to know. These people talk their talk. They ARE men and women of their word. And they are changing the world.

And I got to hug Mish. I owe her so much. And I will promise, as long as people will read I will try to pay it forward. This woman is changing the world. Her program is not just about the obesity crisis. It is about empowerment. Confidence. Being strong. Athletes for life.

Definately rockstar material

(oh - and finally - to those of you who came to me on the night and said you joined 12wbt because of my blog - I was so overwhelmed. I am so sorry I didn't get time to hear your stories in full. I want to. Please let me know on the blog or facebook. I really really could not believe that my blog actually meant enough that you would trust me and make that step.
From the bottom of my heart. Thank you.

Much much love xxx )

Party prep ... I feel pretty!!

2011-12-16T13:53:00.001-08:00

Finally it was time for finale party!

After my 0230 am wakeup, I managed to grab a nap in my huuuge hotel bed, and a little bit of a pre party snack ( a snack I would be very glad for later!)

Past parties have included a LOT of stress over my outfit,

My first party I never actually bought an outfit, and just as I was getting changed I discovered it was tooo big!

The second party I bought a dress last minute ... And again it was far too big!! Whoops! I seem to lose weight in those last few weeks.

This time - shopping was FUN! Getting ready was FUN! I felt pretty! Cute! Maybe a little bit glamourous!

I adore my shoes. I still can't believe I could walk in them!

Almost ready to go ... as good as it gets!

We dont have a full length mirror at home ... I *may* just have spent at least half an hour checking out my legs! That calf work is showing!

I was ready to celebrate! Feeling awesome! Loving life! Ready for the night of my life!

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Miss Gabs

2011-12-15T19:19:00.001-08:00

Do you know what makes 12wbt special to me?

The supporters. Our cheerleaders. Our safety net when things fall apart.

Michelle has set us up with our ready made support crew. Dietitians, trainer, people who walk their talk. Ask a question on 12wbt and an expert is there to answer it for you.

In my first round, I noticed Miss Gabi. Gabi is a PT in Sydney, and one of Mish's best friends. Her posts come across with a real JOY for life ... and she knows lots!

I really came to respect Gabi in my first two rounds. Ask a question about spin bike setup, or why the chest track in pump was killing my shoulder and she would respond.

And she responded in depth. Her knowledge was amazing, but she had a way to communicate in print that somehow I could understand just like she was there showing me. She had a real passion for making sure we had the best information and was set up to succeed.

I am someone who loves to learn and wants to know EVERYTHING so I loved her detailed posts.

And CHEERLEADER! Boy could this girl make you feel like a ROCKSTAR!

It was something special.

Then my third round came round.
Gabi cheered me on to my first 10k at Gold Coast.

She exuded passion and celebrated with me.

And then my world started to crash and burn.

Tragedy hit close and I had a big emotional involvment in it.

I had to be physically, emotionally and mentally strong.

And it was horrific.

Gabi was the first person to give me permission to be weak. I reached out to her, and in an email that exuded love, she firmly reminded me about EXTERNAL excuses and that some things were too too tough. And that even Mish gave us permission not to be perfect when these things happened.

It's funny - by giving me that permission, I was able to forgive myself, and get back into the program stronger than ever.

Round 2 finale in Brisbane was so special to me.

I finally got to hug Gabi and thank her.

And then, during the awards, I stood near her, and her passion for 12wbt shone!

Every announcement she would get so passionate and excited!

"You should see this photo! See that belly! That was visceral fat. It was killing her! And LOOK AT HER!"

Every award winner made her so excited.

This is Gabi's passion. She lives and breathes health and fitness, and in her words -she has the best job in the world.

This round Gabi has again supported me when things fell apart.

Her knowledge had me (and my backside!) well prepared for the Spinathon!

And she celebrated Miss 6 participating too!!

Hugging Miss Gabi at finale is one of my favourite moments.

I can honestly say she is an enormous support to me.
Gabi - you DO makea difference!

Big Big love to you my friend. THANK YOU for showing me that health and fitness was something to be passionate about!

You are a rockstar indeed!

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Finale Weekend - Part two - the workout

2011-12-14T15:23:00.001-08:00

Nothing like a Saturday morning workout with you and 1000 or so of your closest friends to blow the cobwebs off a weekend? Hey!

The finale workout is one of my favourite parts of doing 12wbt. It is just so amazing to be with hundreds of people, all working to one goal ... improved health and fitness. Every workout I try to take a moment to stop and take in the whole scene. Just breathe it in. It really is a special moment.

People at all stages of their journey are there ... and I am so proud of them all! Especially those who are doing it tough ... but no excuses THEY ARE THERE!! I saw a few of you this weekend and I just wanted to run up and give you a hug and tell you I am proud of you. Maybe I should have. I AM SO PROUD OF ALL OF YOU! The 12wbt family is a family of fighters!

Pre workout I got to hug Mish! So excited! Due to the numbers I really didn't expect to catch up with her this round ... and I was ok with that. It's time to share the love.
But Mish recognised me. Hugged me. Told me how great I was looking ...
And for a moment I got to say thanks again.

And then we trained.

The training was different this round. Instead of splitting up into groups based on our fitness level, we trained as one big group.

One very big group.
In some ways I loved that. You were part of something huge.
But I must admit I missed working out with the "advanced crew"
And I really really missed seeing the excitement of the people who trained advanced for the very first time. It was like a badge of honour.

Training with my friends was amazing
My friends are from all over Australia (and the world!) and to sweat with them in the flesh is something special.

Especially my amazing twitter family.

Every time I train I learn new things about me.
This training session brought me a really big revelation.

Basically - to cope with the numbers - it was a really really big body attack class.

What I learned - although it was great and burned calories ... I really don't like body attack.

What I learned was what I love in training is to feel strong.
I run - not because I am fast - but to finish a race I need to be mentally strong, and allow my body to be strong.
I lift - because I feel the strong.
I love pt - because being strong is the only option. Not only physically - but mindset. If my mind is not strong I don't get through it.

Body attack did not make me feel strong.
And that's ok.
The more I learn about what makes me train hard - the better I can be.

At one stage a few of us had had enough of the jumping jacks and running in circles.
So we stopped and did pushups ! That was fun!

And a big thanks to coach rell - who when we were told a minute of pushups - looked at me and said "On your toes. Do not let them drop"
My form wasn't great (I STILL need to get deeper!) But I DID IT!
And without her there I wouldn't have made it!

LOVE my support crew!

And for the record - check out the QLD CREW! We came on masse and rocked Sydney.
Just like our shirts said .. We were "Unleashing our inner awesome!"

Go Qld CREW!

Finale weekend ... Rells Runners Rock!

2011-12-13T02:53:00.001-08:00

There is something about a 12wbt weekend that makes it almost impossible to blog.
So many amazing moments. So much fun. So much self reflection. One weekend is just too small to contain it all.

And getting those emotions into a blog ... impossible.

My weekend began early. A 0500hr flight. Which meant a 0230 wakeup because I COULDN'T SLEEP.

A rush from the airport to the train to the hotel to Centennial Park. All because I wanted to meet these girls. And run.

These girls represent "Rells Runners"
A group of runners, new runners, and experienced runners from around Australia.
A group who have all been given incredible Twitter support from "CoachRell" to run, to be our best, and to get out there and just have fun with it.

Many of us have never run before 12wbt.
Some of us still struggle.
We all have different goals.

There are marathoner's amongst us.
10k-ers.
Half marathoners
5 k-ers
Those who just run.

It doesn't matter if we run short or long, fast or slow. As long as we run.

Do you know Saturday was the first time I've run with a group?
I've run in fun runs before - part of a crowd.
But Saturday ... I was part of a team.
It was fun!
I have no idea how fast we ran. We just ran.
We talked. We laughed. We waved.
We were a team

Brought together by our Coach Rell.
She is paying it forward.

Creating the RellsRunners family.

It was the highlight of my weekend! Truly. Running together is FUN!
(Oh and it was kinda cool to be part of the crazy group that did an easy 5k just to warm up!)

(Big hugs to Rell, Jess, Nikki, Keren, Em, Jacqui, Leander, Kym, Trace, Lizzie and KEVIN BACON! I miss you! Can we run again soon???!!)

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Dear shops

2011-12-12T14:54:00.001-08:00

Hurry up and open!

I want to buy cute non fat clothes!!

(this could get expensive)
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So many memories .,,

2011-12-11T02:02:00.001-08:00

So many friends ... Such a celebration

Big blogs coming ...

Thank you for your patience ...

I feel like Cinderella got to go to her ball

Xxx

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Um yeah ...

2011-12-10T04:55:00.001-08:00

So I totally wasn't checking out the muscle definition on my calves in the mirror in my room tonight ...

Right??

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Must be a sign

2011-12-09T18:26:00.001-08:00

What we saw within 2 min of arriving in Sydney! It's going to be a great weekend!

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Stupid o clock

2011-12-09T09:34:00.001-08:00

Today's workout is brought to you by caffeine, adrenaline and sheer willpower.

What part of a 0500hr flight made sense??! Here's hoping for a power nap today!

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There is no offseason

2011-12-08T03:02:00.000-08:00

Round 3 of 12wbt officially ended Saturday.

But life doesn't stop and nothing changes. I still train. I will always train. I still eat well. I will always eat well.

I wanted to prove to myself this week that it is not about the challenge. It is not about following what is written for me. It is about being the best version of me ALL the time - because this is who I am.

So I set out to prove to myself how far I have come. To make this my biggest week ever. I wanted to challenge my body beyond where I had taken it before, and see how it responded.

This week ...

I have met a longheld goal that I never thought I would. Healthy weight range. The number always seemed impossible. This week I got there.

I have eaten clean - really clean and listened to my body

I have pushed hard. I have done 3 pt sessions and one group pt. I am finishing off the week with a run with the twitter #rellsrunners and coach rell, and of course the 12wbt workout

I have not said no. Things I thought impossible I did. I pushed harder. My box jumps were higher. My lifts were stronger. And I had fun.

I listened to my body. Training hard is fine, but to do so you need to rest, recover and fuel your body well. I got through this week cause I paid attention.

I made no excuses. To fit a 0500 group pt session in I got up at 0430 and then worked an 8hr shift that started at 0630. I made it work.

I shocked a few people ;) Always the fun part. Nothing coming down the gym stairs to see a guy asking your pt if he needs a hand taking the two boxing bags at the bottom back up. I just got to smile, look him in the eye and say - "nope! They're for me!" Then carry them up with confidence

Jumping the highest boxes, running the furtherest, knowing I not only can keep up, but hold my own.

This week has been so exciting for me.

I pushed my body, yes ... but it kept up.
I asked it to be strong and it was.

Tonight was the icing on the cake. I tried to warm up pre pt. I really did. But running on a treadmill was the last place I wanted to be. It was my own personal form of torture.

When my PT asked me what I wanted to do tonight I said "not go on the treadmill". His response was "wanna go for a run?"! Best answer ever!

After some crazy cold and wet December days, tonight was beautiful. As we went the sun was just setting and we came back in darkness. It was cool, crisp, lovely.

We ran to the river, box jumped up grandstands, lunged down paths, the park was our playground.
I felt free, alive, strong and capable. Just what I needed to do.

I love it when a pt just gets you.

This week has been a week I am proud of. Intense. There won't be a week like it for a while. As much as I loved it - I miss my solo time in the weights room. But I asked my body and it responded. I literally used to be embarrassed and ashamed of my body. I hated it. Now I know it is all kinds of awesome. It makes me proud.

Oooooh yeah ...!!!

2011-12-06T02:06:00.000-08:00

Healthy weight range baby!

Goodby pretty shiny hair...

2011-12-05T02:57:00.001-08:00

Yesterday I promised myself some pampering.

New hair do. Healthy lunch out. Time for me.

I felt pretty :)

On facebook I teased that I was going to text my pt and tell him I couldnt come because of pretty new shiny hair.

But that wouldnt help smash it up week.

Hitting the gym was fun. i got two you look awesomes, one wolf whistle and a you look so tiny! No wonder I like going there ;)

Pt liked the hair. He really liked the challenge of messing it up with sweat.

Here is how it went.

Run round block stopping for toe taps on benches

Box jump up stairs 3 stairs at a time ( big improvement on strength today!)

Run stairs ten times

Run block

Bag drags up stairs (two boxing bags) x3

Face plant stair climbs (ugh) up stairs ( i thought these were a one off!!

Run round block

2 min x trainer hard

Soldier hops on hands and knees up stairs

Two more rounds of faceplant stair climbs much to the amusement of after work gym arrivers

25 burpees on stairs. Run stairs . Repeat x 4

Bag drags again

5 min rower

2 min crosstrainer

And this is the result

No more brand new shiny hair.

Replaced by stinky sweaty workout hair.

I think this is more me.
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I will ... because I deserve to be the best I can be

2011-12-04T13:34:00.000-08:00

I will.

I promise.

I'm printing this out so I can read it every day.

Because it's what I deserve xxx

500g

2011-12-03T14:33:00.000-08:00

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I was lucky when I started 12wbt.

I got fast results.

I lost 12 kg in my first round. Within 6mths I had lost almost 20kg!

The rest has come off very very slowly.

Part of this is that weight loss naturally slows down. Part is a plateau I hit.

Part (a big part) is that I allowed far too many "slip ups" in my nutrition.

And I do think part was my mind sabotaging me - not quite ready to "finish" this and let go of who I was.

But today I am ready to do what has to be done.

As of today I am 500g off my healthy weight range.

Not goal weight because I don't know where this will be. I'm not focussing on a number. I'm letting my body guide me.

But I do want to be within the healthy range, and with my frame that is definately reasonable.

500g.

Michelle Bridges 12wbt Round 3 my have officially ended (with our big celebration party next week) but this is NOT time to rest for me.

I have 500g to lose.

I have my biggest training week ever planned this week

I have no red flag days - no reason at all not to nail my nutrition.

I am not taking that 500g to Sydney with me.

No way.

No how.

Time to get this thing done.

Reckon I can ??

Round three major milestone

2011-12-02T22:36:00.001-08:00

My major milestons are normally a running event.

I fully lanned to do that.

But when i woke up today, I wanted to be strong. So I hit the gym. Weights were on my mind.

Today the gym was my playground! It was the day after my gym's Christmas party (which i missed due to miss 6's dance concert) and no one was in sight! Happy day!

I pushed hard for two hours. I wanted to know i could push myself without my pt present. It went something like this.

Warm up. Cross trainer at 12. Treadmill intervals maxing at 12.5.

Chestpress pyramid set. 25, 27.5 and 30kg weights.

Latpull downs wide grip. Pyramid sets at 30, 35 and 40kg

Leg press. Pyramid set at 100, 120 and 130 kg

Dumbell chest press supersetted with barbell bent over rows

Wallsit 5 min

Shoulder press with dumbells

Lunges with dumbells supersetting with barbell bicep curls

Donkey calf raises

French press on one leg.

Cable rows pyramid sets

Single leg calf raises

Over the bench jumps

Cross trainer

It felt awesome! Alive. I love what i am doing eveery day xxx

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Truth

2011-12-01T18:09:00.001-08:00

There are people in my life who do not get the me I am becoming.

People who see the weight loss but do not understand that this is only part of the journey for me.

People who see the hours spent in the gym as a hardship ... A chore ...

There are people who do not get me. Who discourage me even at
They see choosing not to partake in every piece of cake offered as a sacrifice ...

They don't see the sheer joy I have at smashing out a big PT session.
How amazing a really good run can make you feel.
How this is not just about weight loss or how I look -but about changing my life.

Not everyone will support you.
Treasure those who do.
Surround yourself with like minded people (don't forget the forum or twitter!)
Be true to who you are
And don't let the haters get you down.

Your dreams are worth it xxx

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Smash it up week. PT number 4.

2011-11-30T16:37:00.000-08:00

PT #4.

When I planned Smash it up week I had no idea if I would make it this far or I'd still be having fun.It's amazing how you can suprise yourself sometimes ...

Yesterday my legs were smashed. I was luck to spend an hour in a friend's very warm pool and stretch and stretch. That and my skins are what saved me I think.

Last night I went to step. My legs were cramping from inactivity - so I hoped that step would help get the aches out. Not sure if it was that effective.I was still pretty sore. It was fun though.

PT rolled around this morning and I was still excited to go! That in itself was a miracle.

I am thankful for a PT who gets me. And who knows where my body is at. Today no leg smashings, no box jumps, no treadmill. After over 500 box jumps this week my quads wouldn't take it.

Today we had fun.

Warm up

2 x 5kg weight plates. Run them down the stairs. Leave at the bottom. Run back up the stairs.

Repeat 5 times in total.

Then bring them back up.

Bag drags

Take the big taller than me boxing bag in the gym. Tie a rope to it. Drag it the length of the aerobic floor.

Run it back.

Then repeat. With PT sitting on the bag.
I'm proud to say my technique is getting better. As he says - we need to get my bum down.

Repeat stair climbs

yep with those weights again

Repeat bag drags

Am I glad I brought my gloves!

Then my own personal hell began

He calls these faceplant stair climbs or some such nonsense.

I don't think I can describe them. They involved me, upside down on the stairs. Sort of in plank position. And then climbing the stairs. Two flights. With a corner. I think it's best you just have a look and see Youtube

I'm going to tell you the truth. I hate these. A lot. This was the first time I think I've seriously wanted to tell him no.

But I did them. Kind of. In my own way.

Repeat bag drag

First with PT plus some random child on it.

Then faster on it's own.

Repeat personal hell - faceplant stair climbs

Ugh. Oh and video it! Of course we videod at the end when I was exhausted!

Repeat weights up and down stairs.

One last time

Then stretch oh how I needed that stretch

So 4 PT sessions in 4 days. Totally doable.

My body feels good. I feel strong. So glad I did.

Tonight I'm on night shift so tomorrow I rest. And sleep and stretch.

And scheme. I need plans for the weekend

This is going to hurt tomorrow

2011-11-29T13:45:00.000-08:00

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When my Pt offered me extra sessions this week to make up for cancelled sessions over the Christmas/New Year week I jumped at it.

It gave me an idea ... and a plan was formed.

This week (and next) have been declared "Smash it up week"

Two weeks till finale.

Two weeks till I see my 12wbt family again.

And oh so close to a healthy weight range.

I've been mucking with those last two kg for too long.

This is it.
My chance to knock them off for good. Come hell or high water I am not going into 2012 overweight.
No way.

Smash it up week started Monday with PT number one. A little of which is recorded here. Monday my trainer told me - if I wasn't sore he was going to quit. I'm kinda glad he changed his mind on that deal.

Tuesday (last night) was PT number two.

Toe taps on a step.

A lot of runs around the block.

Pushups off some random benches

Box jumps off some local walls.

My favourite moment was when we hit a higher wall and he asked if I wanted him to hold my hand for balance. Deep breath. Focus. And I just did the jump. The look on his face was priceless. (and he said the look on mine was too. Sheer Hell no! This is mine!)

Soldier stair jumps on hands and toes

Stair jumps (3 at a time - these are getting much easier - new plan - practise till I can do 4 and suprise him!)

Squats.

Bosu ball sit ups

Cross trainer intervals
Rowing machine

An awesome session

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Which leads to today...

0430 wakeup call.

0500 group pt

It was simple really

10min treadmill run to warm up

then

Part one

25 pushups.(I did them on knees as a concession to pain - but focussed on depth and form

Run down stairs and round block

Repeat till 4 sets

Part 2

Split box jumps. Same again. 25 reps, 4 sets with a run in between each set.

I got to try something new. The first 3 sets I did a split box jump landing on one foot on the step. So much harder but fun! The last set I was over them so nailed out my 25 with two feet landings as hard and fast as I could

Part 3

Long slow situps. Two minutes. Then run block. 4 sets.

Final blast

10 sprints. Sprint up street, jog back.

Recovery

Stretching never felt sooo good.

Imagine

2011-11-28T01:50:00.001-08:00

Imagine anything is possible.

I love this new inspiration singlet from Lorna Jane. Besides the fact it sparkes. Cause that's exactly where I am at. Imagining anything IS possible ... and dreaming up new goals.

Today this is me.
Pre pt. Just as I am.
I have lots of thing I see and want to improve on still.
But I also see so much that makes me smile.

I still have some weight to lose (not too much I promise!)
And those legs can still get a lot more toned.

But I see a healthy confident woman.
I see skin that is clear.
Arms that I don't feel I have to hide.
Shoulder definition!
Collar bones!

But knowing what I know about tonight's pt ... I see a woman who can

A woman who leg pressed 200kg tonight - and focussed on good form and full range .. and then smiled when a grown man took MY weight off the machine so he could use it ;)

A woman who knocked out toe pushups - full depth
A woman who got outside the I can't in her head when the box jumps seemed too high.

A woman who pressed out one more bench press.

A woman who held onto 60kg in a cable row for the eccentric movement - even though it was HARD!

A woman who held a 3 minute plank.

A woman doing situps with 5kg dumbells for that little bit more.

A woman who says yes. And is strong.

I like what I see.

Arms and legs are now shattered. As they should be.

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There are no tricks or magic potions

2011-11-25T23:04:00.000-08:00

It's funny thing it is.
Lose a bit of weight and people notice.

Lose a lot and they want to know what you did.

The reactions to my answer are very very similar though.
ME: I ate well, counted calories, learnt to run, stopped making excuses and worked my behind off in the gym (literally)
THEM: But what ELSE did you do?
Followed up by a question about shakes,diet pills, surgery - or lately that Dukan diet that seems to be the craze right now

So here it is.
I did not do a single shake.
I did not take a single pill to aid weight loss
I certainly did not have surgery
I did not cut out any food group
I did not go all protein or skip carbs

I DID cut out alcohol - but that was my choice (I'd rather eat than drink!)

I DO go to a gym and pay a PT but I lost my first 7kg with no gym and pretty much lost most of my weight without a pt. The PT is to challenge me and keep me motivated. And fun. You do not need to pay a PT to make this journey.

And I sometimes let other things slip. My house is no where near perfect. But as a couple we have chosen the payoff of my health over a perfect home.

Yep.

I got all the tools I needed to lose weight through Michelle Bridges and 12wbt.com

But it was hard work that did it.

There are no secrets. No shortcuts

But you know the awesome part of that?

It means that YOU can do it to! The secret to weight loss is there ARE no secrets. And it's accessible to all.

You just actually have to follow through.

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Giving thanks

2011-11-24T17:02:00.000-08:00

In the spirit of my northern hemisphere friends Thanksgiving tradition, today I am skipping the turkey and the pumpkin pie (EWWWWWWWWWWWWW!) and just giving thanks!

12wbt.com, Michelle Bridges and my new lifestyle have given me a bazillion things to be thankful for ... let's see how I go!

I am thankful for my husband. His support is amazing. He knows $$ spent now are big $$ saved on chronic health care costs later. He watches miss e so I can train. He cooks dinner almost every night. He listens to me rant on endlessly about how awesome I am. And he has never critisized my weight - even at my heaviest. He just waited for me to be ready to change

I am thankful for Miss E. I am thankful living fit is now all she knows. I am thankful I have had the opportunity to become a mummy she can be proud of!

I am thankful for Mish! She had a vision - and it changed my life. It wasn't just diet and exercise. It was support. It was mindset lessons. It was creating a family.

I am thankful for my mum and dad. They rock. They love me - they support me - they cheer me on!

I am thankful for my blog readers! You guys are so cool! Even now an awesome comment makes my day!

I am thankful for my twitter family. Twitter means I am surrounded by people with the same goal who will love, support, encourage me and kick my butt. Love it

I am thankful for my gym. These guys get me.

I am thankful I can breathe. I really couldn't before

I am thankful my clothes fit. And I can sit without having to negotiate my belly.

I am thankful I can run. I can run just cause

I am thankful I can lift heavy things. I am thankful my bones are getting strong along with my muscles, my heart and my mind.

I am thankful for a pt who gets me. He knows I need to be challenged. That sessions have to be fun. He knows I need to feel like I can conquer the world. That he needed to show I could trust him so I could do crazy things

I am thankful for my Qld crew - fun events - awesome people! Releasing our inner awesome!

I am thankful that I can just say YES! Run? Sure! Bootcamp? I'm in! Crazy 0500hr pt? Yep!

I'm thankful my core is getting stronger. It has always been my week point. It is getting there

I am thankful for CoachRell and #rellsrunners. People who will support me - and know that any run is a good run as long as you are running

I am thankful for the big huge massive 12wbt events. Last time I got quite teary. 800 odd people training in the sun together ... and I am part of it.

I am thankful for lower blood pressure, better blood sugars ... better health

I am thankful for energy. I may train more but I am no where near as tired

I am thankful I am happy now

I am thankful for this newfound passion!

I am just thankful for my life. This is how I am meant to be.

I am thankful for joy!

Just for the record ...

2011-11-24T03:11:00.000-08:00

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I ROCKED PT tonight.

Totally
Yep I did.

It kind of went down like this. Well sort of. I don't know what half this stuff is called!

Warm up

30 bosu ball situps.

stair run

30 split box jumps (maybe 6 risers? I should have counted)

stair run

35 bosu ball sit ups

stair run

35 split box jumps

stair run

.... you get the picture

then 40, 45, and 50.

Warm up done. From 40 I ony had two risers on the step.
The last few rounds were so easy when I worked out I could skip the little second jump I'd been taking and just smash them out.

Well maybe not easier, but faster. And that helped.

Part two

Now here is where I have no clue what to call this stuff. So you need to do some imagining. If you can figure out what they are called let me know. If not i'm going to have to video.

Picture two steps - parallel. Maybe 9 or 10 risers underneath. Me in the middle - one hand on each step supporting my weight.

Swing legs back - pushup.

Lift feet swing legs forward.

Tricep dip

Lift feet swing legs back

Pushup

Repeat 10 times. My arms were burning from supporting my weight but I was shining! I couldnt believe I could do it!

Set two

Same deal.

Pushup - legs forward - tricep dip

Legs middle - lift weight off ground with arms - running motion for 10 counts while body is off ground

Repeat.

I really hope you can picture this cause the burn was awesome!

Set three

Run down stairs - run half a block.

Box jumps on convenient handy cement stairs

Finish block

Go to stupid gym stairs.

Feet at bottom of stairs, hands about 4 stairs up

We do these things he calls "soldier hops" or something like that.

Using hands and feet together "jump" up stairs landing hands and feet at same time

Finish flight of stairs

Swear a little

Run down stairs

Run block

Repeat

And repeat

One solid hour. It was awesome. I honestly loved it.

I felt so focussed. And strong.

Stretching was good though.

Today is a good good day!

2011-11-23T21:50:00.001-08:00

I hate summer. Lots.
I just can't stand the heat.
It will be interesting to see if I feel the same this year or if I cope better.

But today - today was perfect.
Wet, overcast, cool .. just beautiful

Today I went running at 2:00 without dying of heat exhaustion!

Who cares if it was raining.
I ran 5k, it felt awesome and I loved it!

THAT is what matters!

As my @12wbt friend Kym says
Running in the rain is fun. Running in hail hurts.
This was fun
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PT madness

2011-11-22T02:00:00.000-08:00

My favourite time of the week is PT time.
If I had the money I would go more often! It gives me such a rush

I think my PT likes it too.
I refuse to give in.
One day I was lunging with a boxing bag on my shoulder and I was getting pain. Due to my work I am very cautious of shoulder injury and I told him I couldnt hold the bag that way anymore.

He told me to give him the bag.
I said I can't. That would mean giving in, and I'm not going there. I just had to find another way to hold that stupid bag.

Pt makes me strong.
Pt empowers me.

Pt is crazy.
Recent escapes have included

Dragging TWO boxing bags up and down the gym stairs. Repetitively
Boxing!
Box jumps
More box jumps
Higher box jumps
Playing in the park
Kettle bell work (including kettlebell THROWS)
Sprints
Lunging (with said boxing bag as weight)
Chin ups off the monkey bars
Stairs.
Lots of stairs
Burpees that involved throwing myself into the bosu ball
Bruises
And more pushups than I can imagine

I love pt.

Can't wait for Thursday night!

Before and after - face comparisons

2011-11-21T02:38:00.000-08:00

The Qld crew have been comparing before and after of the changes to our faces from 12wbt!
I put these side by side and the changes blew me away.
No wonder I struggled to breathe!

Christmas treats!

2011-11-20T12:01:00.001-08:00

How cool are these? Not quite set and plated up but I had to share! Strawberry Santa hats for a school party!

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From my mum xxx To all of you.

2011-11-20T01:46:00.000-08:00

My mum made me cry today.

I was fruit and vege shopping at a roadside stall on our way home from Brisbane and I randomly checked facebook (as I do)

She had posted this message. And she asked me to share it with my supporters.

I cried.

I love my mum. She has never ever critisized me. At my heaviest she has sewn and made sure I looked as good as I could. She is always always in my corner. Her and my dad rock.

So to all my supporters
To Mish
To the support crew (especially Gabi!)
To Ange and Lisa and Rell and Leander and Kym and my home town crew and Maz and Donna and Anita and Emmy and Heidi and Ruth and Liz (who comments on so many fitness blogs and inspires so many!), and Bec and the whole Qld Crew
To my twitter family
To everyone who comments on my blog
Heck - even Lorna Jane herself not only inspires me with her gorgeous creations, but uses twitter to support, encourage and inspire me xxx
To my gym! Especially that crazy PT I have
To my mum, my dad
And my man, and my girl - who amaze me with how much they support me ...

This is for you from my mum xxx

Big THANK YOU to all Kathy's supporters from her Mum and Dad. We've watched Kathy battle her weight and the side effect of depression,etc for years, but we've never been able to fix it. We've always know there was another "Kathy" hidden away and it so wonderful to see her emerge and become the self assured, happy and BEAUTIFUL person she is today. Thank to you everyone who has helped and special thank you to Paul and Miss E who have given Kathy the time and inspiration to be who she is today.

Round 3 2011 Week 10 video

2011-11-20T01:45:00.001-08:00

It was a rush job this round - but I had to make it. I love how these videos remind me of where I am and where I came from

Make a video - it's fun, easy and free!
www.onetruemedia.com

Dear Lorna Jane

2011-11-20T00:58:00.001-08:00

Yes it is

Anything IS possible!

Watch me!

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Spring means frock shopping!

2011-11-11T19:16:00.001-08:00

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A little bit of an addiction!

2011-11-11T17:52:00.001-08:00

A rainbow of Lorna Jane!
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Emotional Insurance

2011-11-07T20:12:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is going to be a hard day.

It's been an emotional week at my work - and tomorrow will not be easy.

I think I might have learned something this year.

Training makes me strong.

It makes me physically strong - yes.

But beyond that it makes me mentally and emotionally strong.

Tomorrow we say goodbye to a coworker taken too soon.

Today I took out emotional insurance to help me be strong.

I was offered an extra PT session and jumped at it.

My muscles are sore. I am tired.

But I am ready to say goodbye.

Yep it's official.

2011-11-07T18:26:00.000-08:00

I want to be strong enough to do this.

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What scares you?

2011-11-05T18:12:00.000-07:00

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What scares you in training?

What is the one thing you always hesitate before?

For me - it is box jumps.

Something about two feet in the air both at once maybe.

Something about it being a completely unnatural motion to me.

Something about the thought of me totally missing the jump and the chaos that will ensue!

When I go to jump a new jump - you can SEE my brain getting in the way.

You can literaly see the negative thoughts when I hesitate.

And then - it happens. I overcome the thoughts and I jump.

And you know - I make it too.

After that the jump is easy. I can do it over and over until I tire.

Until something distracts me and I lose that focus.

Then it becomes scarey again.

The can'ts come into my head.

And I need to convince myself all over again.

It's a lot like this 12wbt journey isn't it.

Before you start it is so overwhelming.

Your head will tell you a thousand times why you will fail.

And then you begin.

And you just do what you have to do.

And keep doing it.

Until you lose focus ...

Then it becomes overwhelming again.

Until you make that first leap in faith, knowing you will make it.

I keep falling off the proverbial wagon...

but getting back on is getting easier and easier each time.

Just like that jump onto that park bench is getting easier with practise.

You just need to ignore the negative thoughts in your brain

Training as healing

2011-11-05T15:49:00.000-07:00

Sometimes bad stuff happens. Stuff you just can't fix - no matter how much you would like to do things differently.

This week was one of those weeks -and in a small country town - it can be hard to find the joy when a tragedy strikes.

Thursday at work was hard. It was the longest, slowest 8 hours I've ever worked.

Turning up to PT was as much of a necessity as a want on Thursday.

I had so much sorrow and anger and sadness inside me. As I said on twitter it was a matter of cry, eat or train. And training it was.

I *heart* my pt. He took one look at me, knew the story of the day and said "You SO don't need to be in a gym - come on - we are having an adventure!"

So - with a run lit only by streetlights we hit the park - and it was healing.

A run in the semi dark, along normally busy streets that are silent at that time of night.

Laughing as he tried to bust his clients ordering junk food at the movies :)

Chin up attempts on monkey bars.

Box jumps on park benches

Spiderman pushups in the damp grass.

Sprints along the main street.

I came with a heavy heart. I ended the session - with the sadness still there - but so much stronger, and with a smile and a laugh appearing again.

Training can heal! What a gift I've been given!

Rethinking goals ..

2011-11-01T20:39:00.000-07:00

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Round three of 12wbt for 2011 saw me commencing the Lean and strong program.

I was excited.

It was just what I needed.

I needed to feel strong.

I needed to feel worth it.

I needed to feel that it was not about the numbers.

And that's exactly what it did.

I amazed myself. On almost every lift I could lift more than the recomended weight. My body was responding.

With four weeks to go of lean and strong - I should be on a high.

I am ready to nail this.

But my heart, my mind has been telling me another story.

I now know - what I was not in a place to know 8 weeks ago that I need to get back to the business of weight loss.

I don't have a figure in my mind. But I do know I want to lose a little bit more.

It will make my goals so much easier to achieve if I am lighter.

It will get me into that healthy weight range.

It will allow me the joy of running.

And quite frankly- there is still some fat that is not part of who I am hanging about. I want it gone.

Now - I could stick to lean and strong - see it out then lose the weight.

But that wouldn't be true to me.

I've come a long way over this journey - and I trust what I know in my heart.

I am ready to sweat, for cardio again.

I will still do weights and I will still do them strong.

I will still focus on strength with my pt.

That is part of who I am now.

But to be the best version of me - I need to take care of this weight, and I need to focus and get it gone.

So there you go. Lean and strong dropout???

Maybe.

But I don't think so! I AM so much stronger.

And I need to get leaner so the strength will show.

This is all part of the overall plan.

A new challenge is coming for me and I'm excited!

Stay tuned! I may blog it tonight!

Kath xxx

Do you ever have that moment ..

2011-11-01T20:05:00.000-07:00

When you realise your heart isn't in it because your goals have changed??

I might be there right now.

Don't get me wrong - fit - strong - healthy - ... that is still so where I want to be and the heart of all my goals.

It might just be time for a goal review.

I think I've been resting on my laurels and I'm not happy there.

Big things ahead.

Maybe a countdown to Chrissy challenge.

Stopping. Breathing today.
Working out what matter most right now so I can focus narrow and nail that goal!

Halloween zumba night

2011-11-01T18:43:00.000-07:00

I so don't do dress ups.

Better late than never

2011-11-01T18:25:00.000-07:00

Last Thursday's Bootcamp
Honestly was tired to start.
And it took a good 15min for me to get in the zone.
I finished feeling all sorts of awesome tho!

This week - no theme - just smash me.

Run round the block
Box jumps
Run the blockKettle bell squats
Run the block.
Spiderman pushups (hello!!)
Round the block again
Kettlebell overhead rise + tricep extension
The block
Kettlebell squats
Block.
Toetaps
Stairs.
Bosu ball situps

Lat pull downs - drop sets
Cable single arm straight thingy (who knows what to call it!)
Rower 1min HARD then 1 off for 2 km
Xtrainer 1 min sprint on auto

150 challenge
50Squat jumps,
50 pushups
50 Star jumps

No more than 10 at a time. With stairs in between
Was meant to do it in five - took just over 6 minutes.

Then STRETCH!

It was fun but hard! I was tired after! And two pt sessions in a week, two step classes and bootcamp - my quads felt it

Some days you just are awesome.

2011-10-30T18:41:00.000-07:00

Take Tuesday.

Tuesdays is not my normal pt session.

But considering my PT's partner gave birth to a gorgeous girl in the early hours of Thursday morning, there is no way I was letting him train me.

(he would have tho!)

So Tuesday - we made up a session. And I was awesome ;)

It was interesting in a way. My sessions are normally Thursdays. I spend all day getting myself mentally ready. It is always hard. I go in ready to train hard, to be strong, to win.

Tuesday I had little notice - and I was worried my mind wouldn't go where my body needed it to be.

But from the minute I walked into the gym - I knew it would be an awesome session.

One hour.

Cross trainer.

Cable row.

Leg press.

That's it.

One hour.

Three pieces of equipment

Drop sets.

It might have been simple - but it was not easy.

We went heavy.

Lots of dropsets. Eccentric holds. Pulses.

Short breaks.

And heavy.

Over 200 reps on the two weights machines including finishing each round with 50 reps at a lighter weight once my muscles were well and truely fatigued.

I had sweat shining off my skin from the very beginning.

My crowning glory - as heavy as possible. AMRAP (as many reps as possible)

I leg pressed 280kg. 11 reps.

I amazed myself!

That night - I felt all kinds of awesome!

There's gonna be some blogging today ...

2011-10-30T18:30:00.000-07:00

Sorry the blog has been quiet.

I've had some flat days.

And some busy days.

And some stinking crazy totally flat out days!

I've done some fun things!

I have lots to share - including a new blog challenge!

Today I've trained early. I've even done my tax (lucky - it's due today!)

In between some VERY needed house cleaning - today I blog!

I hadn't gone anywhere ... I just needed some blogging space to recharge.

Thanks for waiting on me

xxx

Things i never thought i would do...

2011-10-27T03:49:00.000-07:00

1. Spiderman pushups

2. Leg press challenge. Heavy as possible. AMRAP ( as many reps as possible!)

Let's just say 280kg!!! 11reps!!

You've got this. I've got this.

2011-10-25T03:08:00.000-07:00

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This previous week has not been my best.
I've let myself down.

This is a reminder to me.
Don't lose faith.
You've got this.

I know what to do and I'm doing it.

I'll get there again

Blogging Challenge #5! ALL kinds of AWESOME

2011-10-15T17:34:00.000-07:00

Sorry this week's challenge is delayed.

I had it ready on time.

I really did.

But that challenge did not feel right for this week.

It didn't feel right for a week where we are halfway.

I didn't feel right for a week where I see people celebrating how far they have come ... but maybe worrying about how far they have to go to.

That challenge was deep. It relied on you looking into your past.

I didn't want that this week.

So ... since it's my blog ... I changed it!

Here it is!!

I'M ALL KINDS OF AWESOME!!!

Yes I am!

I posted that on twitter this week.
"Did you know I'm all kinds of awesome? It's taken me all of my 37 years to realise it ... but I AM"

And guess what - no matter what you are physically - YOU ARE ALL KINDS OF AWESOME!

This week I want us to celebrate that.

Make me a list of your awesomeness.

Are you running? Can you sing? Are you a great mother? Are you the friend who never ever forgets a friends birthday? Do you make killer birthday cakes?

12wbt is about health and fitness - yes. But it is also about being the best version of you.

And that does not just mean skinny.

How are you awesome??

I am so excited to find out!

Don't forget ...

LINK YOUR BLOG BELOW!!!

Rest

2011-10-15T16:37:00.000-07:00

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Today is my rest day

This week I KNOW I have earned it.

Time to rest, heal and let my body recover

I have big big plans for next week

xxx

SPINATHON!!!

2011-10-15T14:55:00.000-07:00

Wanna know a secret?
Until yesterday I was terrified of spin.
I've seen people do that class before - they look like they've been through the ringer!
And it's something about the bikes ... they terrified me.

But ... my motto this round was doing things that scare me ... and what better way to conquer a fear of spin... than a SPINATHON!

This spinathon was special to me. Back in July a dear friend passed away suddenly, unexpectedly, and in our eyes - before his time.
He was fit. Only 59. And about to ride a 300k bikeride to raise money for childhood cancer.
He had decided he wanted to raise the most money ever - and when the ride came, and a teammate rode for him in his honour, $14,700 had been raised.

His wife, and dear friends did not want to leave it at that. $300 short of $15k? The job couldn't be left unfinished.

And so the spinathon was set.
4 classes. The gym donated the bikes and the premises.
4 instructors donated their time.

And it was a full house. Every bike was used. Some people even rowed a spin class!
This was not a time for sorrow.
This was time to celebrate a life - and a man's joy in being fit.
And to finish the job!

Paul started the spinathon for our family, as Miss 6 had to sing in the school choir. As a cyclist he brought HIS bike of course - freeing another up! And as soon as we arrived, Miss 6 hopped on a kids size bike and started peddling!

Class two and four were mine. While hubby peddled in class 3, I kept moving and rowed the third spin class. I have some callouses to be proud of!

I LOVE this photo of me! Yes it's blurry - but look! I see a fit, young, happy woman who can do ANYTHING she wants! It makes me realise I've got to where I set out to be and MORE!

Two full spin classes and one rowed ....I felt like a hot dripping mess and I was sure I'd bruised my behind! 1300 plus calories burned. Legs on fire ...and full of JOY! So glad that 12wbt has giventhe ower to support this man's wife in whatever way she chooses to honour him. She rode four classes. Because of 12wbt there was no thought - just YES! We will be there!

But i my mind - my girl was the hero of the day! On a Gecko's bike she rode part of the first two classes.
And the third class in it's entirity.

She would stand when we stood - race when we did.

She had a ball.

I tried to get her off it - no way was she budging!

Definately all kinds of awesome!

My week 5 photo collage

2011-10-14T22:28:00.000-07:00

Week 5's challenge was to present a photo montage of our journey.

It was hard.

How do you put a year and a life changed in one photo?

How do I show that my girl now lives a healthy life cause this is all she shows?

How do I show my strength

Or my hunger to achieve

Or my pt bruises

How do I show that my family now lives this life together?

How do I show how HOT and awesome I feel?

How do I show that I can run jump skip spin ... DO ANYTHING?!

This is my attempt. It falls so short. But I tried

Finding the gaps

2011-10-13T21:44:00.000-07:00

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My nutrition is pretty good. At least I think so. I eat well. I eat whole foods. I focus on foods that will nourish my body.

But right now - my weight loss is sllloooooooow , (if at all!)

I'm training hard. Really hard. I currently have bruises from yesterday's PT.

Which means- somewhere - somehow things have been slipping into my diet that should't have .

I love the above quote. Your body keeps an accurate food journal regardless of what you write down.

It is so so true.

Weight loss cannot happen if your diet is wrong. You cannot outtrain bad food choices.

So I'm going back to basics.
I know where the extras are slipping in - late afternoon and evening snacks.

I've been "guessing" the damage - but now it's time to change my guesses into accurate figures.

I've started tracking again - with myfitnesspal.

Anyone else joining me?

I'll be interested to see how the scales reflect my honesty this week

PT challenge - SMASHED!!

2011-10-12T18:58:00.000-07:00

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So - I told my PT to set me a challenge.
Actually- what happened was I turned up to last weeks pt and said "I felt GREAT after PT last week - so good I went for a run!"
He didn't like that. The challenge was set.

Got a text early this morning bringing challenge time forward to 1030 this morning. Happy me! I was pumped! I didn't want to wait.

Arrived at the gym early, and warmed up. I didn't want to waste time today in my session warming up. I was ready for fun!

Here's how it went down.

1. Go to weights rack. Pick up 2.5kg dumbbells. Go to stairs. Run down stairs and back.
Pick up 5kgs. Continue as before. Repeat for 7.5, 10, 12.5, and 15k dumbbells.
For the 17.5 and 20kg I only had to get as far as the stairs. Mercifully.

2. Repeat 1. but in reverse. 20kg, 17.5kg. 15kg. 12.5 kg. 10kg. 7.5 kg. 5 kg. 2.5kg.

3. When you get back to 2.5kg dumbbells continue down stairs, out door and run around the block . Return to gym, up stairs and weights back.

4. "Situp circus" Working in pair with PT, ankles hooked around each other, throwing medicine ball to PT on "up " of situp, catching on "down". Repeat till 100. He only counts the good ones. Cause he sucks like that.

5. 10 aerobic steps laid in a line across floor. Walking pushups down length (AND BACK) - one hand up - one hand on ground.

6. Same line of steps. Tricep crabwalks. Up and back.

7. Drop to ground. 1 pushup. Run length of aerobics floor and back. Drop. 2 pushups. Run. Continue to 5.

6. 5 squat jumps. Run. 4 Squat jumps. Run. Repeat till one. If he catches you at end you're back to 5.

7. 30 Kettle bell squats. Run stairs . Repeat squats and stairs x stairruns 5 times

8. Discover heart rate is 170. Do a few stair sprints to try to hit 180. Max at 175.

9. 1 minute plank.

10. Stretch.

I think that's everything! If I missed something I'll update it as I remember!

I felt awesome! There wasn't a moment I felt like giving up! Honestly - I wanted to keep going.

Kath 1: PT 0

Ready for the next challenge!

Getting uncomfortable.

2011-10-11T04:41:00.001-07:00

Today.
Lean and strong triceps and back
New release of group power.

Shoulders are burning already!
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Day 1. Week 5. Lean and strong

2011-10-10T02:53:00.001-07:00

This week we move into training a specific body part each day. Day 1 for me was chest and biceps ... I think one of my weakest areas.

Can I say .. dropsets are pure evil! Talk about BURN!
I really struggled this session. It felt hard. I felt weak. And soooo many pushups!
But I did it. Maybe not with the best form - but I did it.

Followed up by groupstep
It's release week at my gym! I love getting the new releases - but geez I felt unco-ordinated!
Sweated up a storm though!

Pushup track HURT though after weights training ... I guess I didn't think that through.

I love the new BTS posters.
I want to be the athlete I have dreamed of.
Yep.
Right there.
That's the plan!

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Lean and strong. The first four weeks. Wrap up.

2011-10-08T19:34:00.000-07:00

Today marks the end of the first four weeks lean and strong.

It's been an experience.
For me - it's been a totally different mindset - and a real case of having to trust the program and hope it works.

Well - four weeks in, it seems to be working just fine ;)

It was a real mental challenge to turn my focus from cardio - to weights. Especially as I still have weigh to lose. To fit in all the workouts I have had to let my running drop right back. If I run once or twice a week I'm doing well.

At week four I have lost close to 2kg. I have lost 15cm off my body.

I certainly am stronger. My wallsit is up 45 sec to 4 minutes ... and I could have kept going but decided to stop to protect my knee.

Visually, I must have changed. Three different gym instructors have told me how great I'm looking.

Even though I haven't been running much, my runs are stronger dropping around 20sec/km off my average pace

I am stronger physically. Heavy things are fun!

And mentally. My pt sets me some crazy things. I haven't said no yet.

My training is more regular. I seem more dedicated to turn up to my strength workouts.

My muscles are growing. I can see those baby biceps forming.

And DOMS is a constant force in my life.

I'm certainly hungrier. I really have to watch my food. Plan my snacks. Get that protein in.

In classes I am more focussed on form. My pushups, crunches, planks are getting done more correctly.

My ab strength is still poor. But it is growing.

And my flexibility is rotten. As always. But I'm working on it.

I am smaller. My clothes are growing again.

And I am happy. I am loving this. And it feels so sustainable.

At week 4 I am excited. Two weeks ago I wanted to switch to lean and fit. Now I can't wait for week 12.

Bringit on baby!

Blog challenge #4

2011-10-08T18:07:00.000-07:00

I saw this on pinterest.com and loved it.
We all know what our Mish thinks of motivation!

4 week ago - or 4 rounds ago - or whenever our 12wbt.com journey began- motivation may have been what inspired us to kick off! But now - the gloss may have worn off just a little bit.
The eating, the training, the mindset work we do - we do it because it is what we need to succeed. Not because it's some great new fun sparkly thing!

What I want you to do this week is reflect. Remember who you were. Celebrate who you are. You ARE a success.
You may have come a little way, or a long way ... but I've bet you've changed.

So here we go!

1. Describe in 25 words or less (why is it always 25 words) the you that you were before 12wbt
2. Now - who are you now??
3. What has the hardest been the hardest thing to make habit THIS ROUND?
4. What has been easier to make habit than you thought it would be?
5. How has your body changed THIS ROUND?
6. How has your mindset changed this round?
7. Finish this sentence "I now know I am strong because ..."
8. Finish this sentence "I am proudest of ...."
9. Finish this sentence "In 8 more weeks you will see me ...."
10. What word applies to you now - that you never would have used before 12wbt?

Don't forget to link your blog below! And if you get time - please visit another blog or two and leave a comment!

Today's challenge. The 99

2011-10-08T16:28:00.000-07:00

Today is Sunday. But today is not my rest day.
I'm about to go onto late earlies for work - and just in case fatigue hits me bad tomorrow I wanted to know I've done SOMETHING today. Preparing for a possible red flad I guess you would say.

I'm home with Miss 6 tho - so a run is out of the question. And after yesterday's AMRAP session I wanted to wait a day before hitting the weights again.

I found this challenge on pinterest.com
Perfect.

I substituted the leg lifts and alternated with squats with weights, kettle bell swings, and kettle bell squats dropping the bell to the floor and thrusting above head for variety.
And since I couldn't run that meant 11 min of fast step running, skipping and plyometrics to get the heart rate up.

Speaking of - my HRM isn't working. Going to wash the strap and see if that helps.

Anyway - it was a fun challenge. Miss 6 played outside while I did it (which was the aim!) and I know I've moved today!
Took just on the hour!

Are you up for it?

Week three blogging challenge - MY RESPONSE - FIND THE JOY!

2011-10-08T15:59:00.000-07:00

Why am I always the last to respond to my own challenges?

This week I challenged bloggers to find the JOY! Especially the non food related joy!
Here are just a FEW of the things that bring me joy!

My family - especially my girl. Children don't come easily to everyone. She is a bigger miracle than we ever knew. I love and adore her -and her cheeky attitude to life! But what I really love is her JOY for health and fitness! Maybe, just maybe - she won't need to struggle like I have.

And my dog! He's an old dog. He saw me through a pretty rough time as a puppy. At times we still see that puppy in him. He's always up for cuddles and snuggles.

Feeling strong. I always loved cardio. I had no idea how incredible feeling strong would make me feel. I am learning to love to lift heavy - and see my body respond.

My man. Not only do I have the best husband in the world, and the most supportive one ... but how cool is it to finally be doing all these fun fitness things together! I finally get why he loved it! It doesn't happen often, but every time we get to run together brings me JOY!

My parents. No pic. They would hate that. But they love and support me in everything. They taught me to be strong. They listen to me talk over and over about what I am doing. They taught me how important family is ... They are my rocks.

The freedom of RUNNING. I never ever thought I would be a runner. No I am. I have the power to run till my heart is free! Adore!

PT time. I love being pushed, and the unpredictability of it. I love being suprised. And I love not giving in no matter what he throws at me.

My work. OK - I get sick of it like any other job. But I am So glad I made the change to nursing. I don't know if it's my forever career but I love it.

My twitter family. Instant support. All the time. They rock.

Blogging. I still have no idea why people read my blog - but I'm glad they do ! I love to share my adventures! Plus it's cheap therapy.

Music! Especially live music!!

Coffee! I love my coffee! (too much!)

Rare dates with my husband. We have no babysitter in our home town - and when we go away it's normally with a purpose - so those rare nights out together are special.

Oh - and it's totally shallow - but I love my Lorna Jane. I choose my singlet to match the attitude I need to bring. Awesome

Too many things bring me joy! But this is a pretty good start!

Week 4 Mini milestone! AMRAPS

2011-10-07T20:46:00.001-07:00

Week four of this round of 12wbt!
I can't believe how quickly it has gone!
By far - training wise especially this has been my most consistent round.
Weight loss is slow - but it is steady.
Measurements suprised me - definately dropping.
And people are noticing the changes - especially the trainers at my gym.
Lean and strong has me excited!

Today is mini milestone day. Normally I just go for a run. A big one.
Today I actually followed the challenge set for us by Michelle Bridges - the lean and strong AMRAP challenge
Oh. my.
It was tough.

Because time was limited I ran to the gym. It wasn't far - just 3km. But I pushed my pace and on muggy day I was feeling well and truly warm by the time I got to the gym.

And then I hit the weights room. Challenge time.
A full weights workout. Pyramid sets. Super sets.
And at the end of each exercise add in one extra set. Heavier than ever before. As many reps as possible (AMRAP)

It was hard.
I am awesome ;)

I must admit - on the leg press I didn't go heavier than before. Without someone to spot me I wasn't happy to go over the 160kg pb I've done before.

What I learned is that I am stronger than I knew.
ESPECIALLY in the legs.
My legs don't seem to struggle at all.
Maybe that running paid off.

And if anyone doesn't think you burn calories in weights training they are wrong

Halfway through I thought I was going to die.
What the heck was Michelle thinking?

At the end ... post stretch...

I felt like a rockstar.

Challenge accepted ... and smashed ...
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Red Flag. Bull.

2011-10-06T04:05:00.001-07:00

PT on Thursday was awesome

Even though I'd worked all day my head was just in the right place. I was STRONG

Here's how it happened. Once again - with a few exceptions, no weights listed. I don't look at them. He sets them I do them. That way my head doesn't get in the way.

Warm up ... Rower 1km max resistance.

Leg press.
100kg.
120kg.

Chest press.
20 incline pushups
Chest press (heavier)
30 incline pushups

Cable row. 12 reps
Cable row. Heavier. 20 reps.

Russian twist on bench with unstable bar.

Russian twist with 7.5 kg dumbell on fitball
Straight arm overhead triceps with dumbbell on fitball.

Ab work. Still hurts like hell but WAY beter than last week. I think I even suprised the PT!

Latpull down 50kg x15 , 40 pulsing x20 , 30 pulsing x15
50 pulses at 50 kg. (OW!)

A little game he calls the "Sit up circus" with 5kg medicine ball.

Stretch

I think however, I may have made a mistake. I kinda sort of told him that after pt last week I felt so great I went for a run. (whoops)
And then after pt this week I did a 4min wall sit and smashed a previous pb (more whoops)

It's like a red flag to a bull

When I hit the gym the next day he said "what are you doing here? you shouldn't be walking!"
Doms are yet to set in ;)

So there is a challenge set. Next week I think I'm in for pain.

Bring. it. on.

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STRONG

2011-10-06T03:50:00.000-07:00

Saw this before PT today.
This is inspiration.

Take out the soccer - and prety much everything in here I want to be able to do.

STRONG WOMEN.

Yesterday I trained. Today I rested.

2011-10-05T04:10:00.001-07:00

I'm learning about balance.

Balancing my training, with rest.

Yesterday I absolutely smashed it. One hour of step, then lean and stronh weights.

I worked HARD and I'm feeling the doms today!

Today, was my core day. I walked with my girl, and did pilates.
I felt it. And i stretched. And i feel taller.

In the past I have focussed on cardio, at the expense of strength, core and flex.

No more.
This is for life. And my body needs me to let it be balanced in all hours of fitness.

I really regret ignoring core and flex. Other areas of my fitness are now suffering because of it. Heed my warning ... ALL areas of fitness are important! Train in balance!

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Where I need to be

2011-10-03T19:02:00.000-07:00

(source - Pinterest.com)

For some reason, I still feel out of my depth at times in the "boys" weight room where the heavy things are. It's not only the blokes - I just feel like people are looking at me and thinking I don' t know what I'm doing. (which sometimes I don't)

The thing is - I need that area to meet my goals - so I have to get over this.

SO - that quote up there - that is my new goal!
I've worked out the problem - it is worse when I really DON'T know what I'm doing!
SO that's easily fixed.
I will not step into that gym without a plan for what I am training, how I will do that, what equipment I need and how it works.
I will do my workout in my head and on paper first.
Then I will go in and train like I belong there.
Cause I do

Tomorrow ...

2011-10-03T04:06:00.001-07:00

Tomorrow I may not be able to move.

Miss 6 had her kids class at the gym today.
So I took the time and smashed up legs for lean and strong.
Once or twice I thought "I'll leave that and do it at home" when I saw the meatheads at the gym ...but I decided I deserved to be there and SMASHED it out. Every time you overcome a fear - that fear holds less power over you.

I loved today's workout. It was heavy. Lots of pyramid sets. But it made me feel STRONG.

Then ... a miracle (in our house) happened. Hubby finished work dead on time - and I was able to drop Miss 6 with him and head back for group power (the BTS version of pump).

I thought I'd go light. I mean let's face it - I'd just smashed my legs.
I didn't.
I went heavy and maxed EVERY track. For the first time ever I did the entire bicep track with 5kg plates on the bar.
And I am sore already. That delicious ache that means you trained HARD.

Finished the night off with zumba. Normally zumba after power means no doms the next day. Don't think it will work this time.

I. Feel. Awesome.

Remind me of that fact tomorrow.
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Yep. Nothing more to say.

2011-10-03T03:58:00.000-07:00

Woman of my word.

2011-10-01T18:49:00.001-07:00

I had to run today. It had been too long since a decent one. I knew my body needed it. My mind did too.

But it was COLD. And by cold I mean ICY and headwinds!
So - I did what I do - and put a shout out to the twitterverse for a bit of "harden up princess" butt kicking. Thing is - Mish saw it, and kicked my butt she did.

And this is the flipside.
A photo of a woman of her word. No excuses. 10km done. In the beginning it felt great. In the end, that headwind had me swearing every step of the last k.

And here is the funny bit.
When I left I was i such a hurry to get out there and RUN that I forgot to change my socks!
I ran 10km in my bedsocks!
No wonder my feet hurt!

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Round three blogging challenge WK 3! FIND THE JOY!

2011-10-01T15:07:00.000-07:00

Have I told you this week was tough yet? About a million times? Yep sorry about that.

It got me thinking though ... as was struggling to smile, and to find my joy again, I really had to fight old habits. No matter how sad I was, my JOY was not going to be found again in food. No way. No how.

And Im sure I'm not the only one to have used food in the past to cope with sad or stressful situations. Chocolate? Wine? Carbs? What's your poison?

So this week's blogging challenge is to FIND YOUR JOY!

Make me a list.

Or as my Gran used to say - count your blessings - every one.

Make me a list of all the NON FOOD self nurturing things that bring you joy. Count your blessings.

Then print it out.

When times are tough try turning to it.

Let's get the joy going around!

And don't forget to link your blog here!

Links to previous challenges and responses are http://courage2start.blogspot.com/p/round-three-2011-blogging-challenges.html! Never too late to join in. Just jump in where you are!

Wk 2 blog challenge - a picture of health - my response

2011-10-01T02:46:00.001-07:00

Here is the thing - when I set this week's blog challenge here I had in my mind the response I wanted to give. I thought I'd made it easy on myself.

So wrong.

As I've said a few times, life threw me a curveball this week (twice really) which changed my answer made me question my body and my "health" and made me think a lot harder than I wanted to!

Before I answer - I do want to say the responses this week are awesome! Thought provoking.

One thing I know, working as a nurse, ... I know what health is not.
Health is not obesity related illness. It is not lying in a bed on a heart monitor, watching a family cry as they see the results of a stroke in a loved one, chronic leg ulcers, loss of vision from diabetes, being physically unable to walk, mobilise and move in bed.

But there is more than that. Health encompasses the physical - yes. It is not being ill - obviously. But it also encompasses the emotional, the spiritual, our relationships - our lives.

For me - right now - health is being ENOUGH

For me health is being
STRONG ENOUGH to lift, to push, to carry, to dig, to do what needs to be done in my work, my home, and fun without having to injure my body or ask for help.
It also means (and has meant) - that in an emergency I am STRONG ENOUGH to give the best version of me to those in need, and know my body will not let me down.

It is being
FIT ENOUGH To run, to jump, to cycle, to LIVE. Knowing that my body will not let me down and I can live life LOUD. It means I can work, train, and parent - and have the energy to get through the day ... and then rest and rest well.

It is being
POSITIVE ENOUGH It is having that joy for life - to be able to go through the day with a smile and a spring in my step. Yes life will have times of sadness, anger, frustration and grief ... but for JOY to be my overwhelming emotion.

It is being
PRESENT ENOUGH It is being part of the lives of those I love. Supporting them and letting them support me. And being involved with them. Not just on the fringe of their lives.

It is being
WELL ENOUGH Sometimes you will get sick - but it is about being well most of the time - able to rest when needed, and recover quickly and get on with life. It is an absence of chronic illness and the health to live life to the fullest

It is being
RESILIENT ENOUGH When life knocks you for six, (as it will) it is about being able to cry, yell, get the anger and grief out, and then in time bounce back. It is being knocked down 7 times and getting up 8, and having the emotional ability to do so. It is about bouncing back.

It is being
AT PEACE ENOUGH Taking time to breathe. To pray. To meditate. To rest. Just to be. Life cannot always be run at full bolt. It is about time to sleep, to find your spiritual self, to rejuvinate.

So there we go. My picture of health. Less of a definition. More of a description. But that's just how I write.

Now to get out there and make sure I am living it!

Did a little shopping today ;)

2011-10-01T01:13:00.001-07:00

To think i used to waste my money on makeup, jewellry and heels!

A freak storm put paid to today's run. But i got to play with my new toys and arms are officially smashed!

(again!)

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Wisdom

2011-09-30T15:47:00.000-07:00

Let's make today WORTH IT

From Emazon Chronicles - emazon.tv

Today i walked and my heart sang.

2011-09-29T19:10:00.001-07:00

Yes I did my weights, but I wanted more.
Today was not a day to run.
Today I wanted to walk.
And walk.
And walk.

I wanted to feel the sun on my shoulders and the joy in my heart.

If i didn't have work today I think I would still be walking.
I love how a good walk is no effort at all anymore. I can walk long, fast, far ... And hills aren't a challenge.

It's the simple things really.
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Training is a gift

2011-09-29T02:22:00.001-07:00

I've always been honest on this blog. Sometimes too honest. Right now is tough for me. Tears come easily and things don't make sense.

But today I also realised what an absolute TREASURE my training is. It is a GIFT.

All day I have waited knowing PT was coming. I knew it would be just what I needed. I needed to feel strong. I needed to sweat. I needed to feel my body respond just as it should to every challenge.

When my PT rang to ask to move our session 2 hours early I was pumped! Couldn't wait.

And it was a good session.

Treadmill sprints to warm up.
Then lat pull downs. Heavy. ( sorry don't know the kg ... He sets them . I trust him)
Followed by lat pull downs with a pulse. (ow!)

Chest press.
20 pushups.
Chest press. 20 reps. (can i say FATIGUED?)

Dumbbell flies . Timed. 2 min. I hit 50.

Stair jumps. The flight of stairs to the gym, missing one stair, and two if i could. 5 sets.

Cable rows. 2 sets.
Then one set alternating with a torso twist, timed, 2 min

Kettlebell burpees (what the!!)
Sprints
Kettlebell swings.
Sprints
Russian twists on fitball with kettlebell
Straight arm tricep extensions on fitball

Core work with fitball

Box jumps

Wall sit and streetch

When i finished, he laughed and told me I was no fun. That I was getting too fit and he'd need to start working harder to smash me. Loved that!

My training is a gift. I felt fit, strong, alive.

So alive, that i decided to finish it off with a run when i got home. As i told CoachRell before i went it was time to run until my body ached and my heart felt free.

I ran. No gps. No hrm. No time or distance expectations.

It was hard. My legs were smashed from pt. It was ugly.
But i felt free.

For a little while at least my heart didn't ache at all.

The weight loss, the smaller dress sizes, the health benefits ... They are great.

But the ability to run until my heart is free, to train until I feel strong again ... That is a priceless gift

Xxx

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Struggle street

2011-09-28T01:59:00.000-07:00

Some days are tough.
Today was very very tough.
I could easily have fallen totally apart. Easily.

But today I'm proud.
Instead of sitting at home crying, or reverting to bad habits, I went to the gym, and lifted heavy things.

OK it wasn't the greatest workout.
But it felt good.

I'll be ok guys. Today is just a day to feel sad.
But at least I feel strong too.

Overcoming adversity ?? ;)

2011-09-26T14:11:00.001-07:00

Problem with losing weight? Pants getting too big and slipping down randomly during a run or squat track!!

Solution??

Wonder woman undies?? ( cause that's how I feel!)

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Round 3 blogging challenge - Number 2. A picture of health?

2011-09-19T15:57:00.000-07:00

Firstly - I'm sorry this second challenge is late! Don't put it off blogger! Its gonna be a big week! Two challenges to catch up - here is the first!

Secondly ... OH MY!!! 82 submissions to week one! You blow me away! I am doing my best to read them all - and I will! (the public ones anyway!)

So ... onto week two!

And if you haven't read week one's blogs - check it out HERE!! Be inspired!!

Michelle Bridges has often said "If you don't make time for healthy living now - make sure you make time for illness later"

I know she's not the original source (and I will endeavour to find it) , but this leaves me to my next blogging challenge.

Often at this stage on the forums we have two very distinct groups. One is up and at em. Enthused. Ready to go. One in all in. Two, three classes a day and running and cycling to.

Then you have those, who are struggling just to get started. And that first group is very very overwhelming to them.

And a lot of us are somewhere in between.
And that is normal. We all have different visions of health. Maybe health to you is running two marathons a year (not to me!)
Maybe it is keeping up with your kids.
Maybe it is being able to go for a jog Sunday mornings, or knowing you have the strength to dig and play in your garden.

I'm asking you to paint me a picture.

What is (to you) a picture of health?
What is health?

I'm a nurse. Shoot me. This interests me! But the varied responses from week one had me thinking. And wondering.

I'm not after a textbook answer. Paint me picture. Paint yourself a picture. Give yourself something to be inspired by.

Week two is health

Write your blog. Link it below! Have fun! Get real! Be honest!

Stand your ground 2.

2011-09-17T17:26:00.001-07:00

Yesterday I took a powerful step forward in my journey.

Yesterday I shared a space with an amazing group of women, and Emma of Emazon Chronicles.

Yesterday I attended Stand your ground 2.

For those of you reading because you want to know more about Emazon, what happens, and what I thought of it - I am sorry. This is an experience you can't blog. Some things I may write about later, as they unfold, and as they apply to my life at the time ... but I cannot tell you about this. You need to experience it, on your level, as you are ready to at the time.

I can tell you this. It was a whole world apart from what I experienced in Stand your ground 1. Stand your ground 1 came at a time of hurt for me. I had been using this hurt as a way of avoiding taking tough steps and being strong. I was using family illnesses, and life happenings and avoiding doing what needed to be done in my life and my training.

Just under a week before stand your ground 1 life jumped in and forced me to be tough. I was not given a choice. I had to be strong for another, at one of the most tragic times of her life. That night I was forced to be mentally, physically and emotionally tough. It stripped me raw, but showed me who I could be.

Stand your ground one came later that week. It was the first time in months I was strong because I chose to be. Not because life forced me to be.

It was overwhelming. It stripped me raw.

This photo was taken that day. In it, I see a whole world of hurt unleashed. It is a photo that scares me - but symbolises that day for me. I was releasing the hurt, and deciding, no matter what life threw at me I was strong, and I was taking control.

It was when I began to Stand my ground.

Yesterday no photos were taken during the group session.
Just the one at the end.
And although no photos were taken, I don't think you would have seen that look on my face yesterday.

Yesterday I realised how far my journey has come in a few short months.
I know the steps I have been taking are the right ones.
I know that the way I perceive myself, and the way I measure my success have changed forever.
I am not, and never will be measured by a number.

Yesterday I felt strong.
I felt focussed.
I was working on my terms, in my time.
Emma had the lessons, but my learning ... it was up to me.

If a photo was taken yesterday I feel it would have shown REAL strength. Focus. Determination. Pride. And knowing.
Knowing that this is my path, and it is as it should be.

Yesterday was a gift.
I came home with bruises on my knuckles, and my heart singing.

Last night ... last night my body told me to sleep ... and I did. Solidly and soundly.
My mind needed time to solidify all I had learned, and confirmed yesterday.

Today - today I know longer feel like singing and dancing.
Today I woke with a peace. I woke feeling grounded. I woke feeling strong.
I woke feeling I know my way forward, and I am not going back.

Emma - you helped me realise a gift.
Thank you.

Just run

2011-09-15T03:20:00.001-07:00

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Day 2 . Lean and strong. Or don't let the meatheads win

2011-09-13T03:20:00.001-07:00

Today started by me getting a virtual butt kicking from the twitter crew and diving into the fitness test.

My run was good. Definately feeling tired in the legs from Sunday. 1km done in 5min 37. So much faster than I used to be but plenty of room to improve! This puts me in intermediate for the run ... Just outside of advanced. I reckon I would have squeaked into advanced if there wasn't a stick in the middle of the path resulting in a turned ankle :(

Next up was step with a friend and new 12wbt'er. I know lean and strong should mean limiting cardio ... But I'm not in it for any awards. I'm happy to keep some cardio in for fun.

After step I wanted to hit the weights room, and smash up lean & strong weights. But enter the macho gym monkey and my temporary loss of confidence.

You know the type ... Load up every piece of equipment with weight but can't be bothered to put it away, use lots of equipment at once and hate working in, lifts stupid high weights often with poor form, and just make me feel intimidated.

So, I'm sorry to say but I went home.

Not the end of the story of course though. Some soul searching, some twitter therapy, and I went back. As much as anyone I deserve to be there.

And I won through. It was a much better time to go. Much quieter, better staff on. Win all round.

And I smashed out those weights. My legs are strong. Upped most of the weight recommendations above the max in the program.

Today was a good day.

Now home with my family to stretch, and early to bed.

Hit it hard in training ... But taking time to rejuvinate too.

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Round 3 bloggers challenge - week 1. My response!

2011-09-12T23:29:00.000-07:00

If I'm going to set a challenge - probably a good idea if I complete it too!

My answers to the first 12wbt blogging challenge of round three!

1. Describe yourself in 25 words or less. You can get straight to the point - or bring your creativity into play.
Happy. Family focussed. A lifetime learner. Passionate - especially about health now I have some. Lover of good music, live theatre, great books. Loyal to a fault, but I have a temper too!My family is my world.

2. What brings you to 12wbt? Getting fitter? Losing weight? (Gaining weight??) Are you first timer, a repeat offender??
Definately a repeat offender - or lifetime member perhaps. My first round was about saving my life. My second about learning to run. I didn't know it at the time but my third round was about overcoming all obstacles. Life threw hurdle after hurdle at me.

My fourth round (this round) - it's lean and strong baby! Weight loss is no longer the focus (but a nice sideline!) Really - it's about overcoming and smashing through my comfort zone. This is the round I learn to not be scared and to have adventures!

3. Why do you blog??
I blog, firstly - to keep myself accountable. In order to blog I have to get out there and DO something first. A blog about nothing is pretty boring really.

I blog because I believe in this program! I want to share it with the world. Since singing it's praises from the rooftops doesn't always work - I blog instead

And I blog - because one day I want to show my little girl that sometimes things that don't come easy are worth fighting for. I want her to know that I fought with all I had to be fit, strong, and healthy for her , to set her a good example, and to give us a life that's fun and full!

4. Who is your biggest inspiration in life and why (doesn't have to be weight loss)
My mum. She is strong. Stronger than she thinks. She is organised and efficient. She says yes way too often at times ... but she is learning balance I think. She loves us kids heart and soul ... and she is my biggest supporter. She has always believed in me, always told me I'm beautiful.
She is amazing. (and I'm not the only one that says so)

5. What things in life bring you the most joy?
My family. My girl. I adore her. Good coffee. The sun on a warm spring day. The feeling I get on a REALLY good run. Being surrounded by people who love me.

6.What do you think your greatest challenge is going to be this round?
Overcoming my fear of meatheads in the weights area at my gym!

7. What are you most excited about 12wbt?
That I am about to see more lives transformed! And this time - I am seeing local lives changing! My little country town has a local group - and we are going to rock!

8. And what scares the pants off you?
Every time I have to do something new I get terrified. But I'm learning to barrel on through. Fear just means you are on the edge of something huge!

9. Tell me - right now - today - how do you feel about exercise in no more than 10 words
Passionate! It invigorates me. It empowers me. It is my therapy, my strength and my joy!

10. Complete this sentence - in 12 weeks time - on the last day of 12wbt I am going to be feeling ____________________
STRONG. I am going to feel like a champion! Healthy in all areas. Fit. Toned. Living the life I should be and deserve to. And like a woman of my word!

Round 3 Bloggers Challenge! Let's go!!

2011-09-12T20:13:00.000-07:00

Once again I am hosting a 12wbt.com bloggers challenge on courage2start.

This time I'm actually organised! Expect a new topic every week - usually on the weekend depending on my work schedule.

This week's topic is an easy one. I've designed it to be be quick to do, and give everyone a chance to get involved.

Sooooo topic number one ... is INTRODUCE YOURSELF!

Copy the following questions to your blog. Answer them. Help us to get to know our fellow bloggers and what you really think of 12wbt!

1. Describe yourself in 25 words or less. You can get straight to the point - or bring your creativity into play.

2. What brings you to 12wbt? Getting fitter? Losing weight? (Gaining weight??) Are you first timer, a repeat offender??

3. Why do you blog??

4. Who is your biggest inspiration in life and why (doesn't have to be weight loss)

5. What things in life bring you the most joy?

6.What do you think your greatest challenge is going to be this round?

7. What are you most excited about 12wbt?

8. And what scares the pants off you?

9. Tell me - right now - today - how do you feel about exercise in no more than 10 words

10. Complete this sentence - in 12 weeks time - on the last day of 12wbt I am going to be feeling ____________________

When you have finished your week on blogging challenge lick on the add your blog button below. You can then link your entry directly below this post so others can read it too

And we have KICK OFF!

2011-09-12T18:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was day one Round 3 for 12wbt.com.

The beginnng of the next part of my journey!

Honestly - it wasn't nervewracking, or filled with excitement. It was just the next step. It was continuing what has become a new way of life.

BUT - there was some trepidation in the air.

Yesterday was also the first day of Lean and Strong for me.

This round is less about weight loss, more about strength, empowerment, and muscle definition.

And I am scared.

You see - I don't like the "grown up" weights area. I like my little ladies only gym with no big hulking gym monkeys hanging about and leaving ridiculous amounts of weight on the equipment.

And I love my cardio. I get a real high from a great class. Or a big run.

But I am going to do it.

Even though my comfort zone is going to get smashed to pieces.

Day one was a success.

I swapped my days and did biceps, back and chest. Legs needed a break from Bridge to Brissy.

It wasn't bad.

I was able to go heavy on all my weights. And I managed to fit it in while Miss 6 was at Gecko Kids so we both won.

Then I went back to zumba and did MOST of the class. My head and heart weren't in it. The 3am Bridge to Brissy start caught up on me.

The food - was delicious. Focusing on protein at snacks really helped the hunger.

I'm calling day one a success. But what made it most amazing, was looking at the excitement of all those new to 12wbt this round! I love it causeI know their life is about to change big! How much fun is that!

Bridge to Brisbane

2011-09-11T18:06:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was a day I have waited forever for.

Yeserday was Bridge to Brisbane
You see - my entire married life I have told my husband I am going to run that run"next year".

Well yesterday "next year"came, and it was awesome.

The day started early. Stupid o'clock early.

Yep - the car clock confirms it - 3:53 am - and that is after time to dres and have breakfast. Stupid early.

I must say Saturday had me worried about the weather - I though for sure the wind would throw me off the bridge!
But apart from being kind of freezing at the start - Sunday was calm, and kind of awesome for running.
The start of Bridge to Brisbane is a killer. Uphill. 5.5% incline up the gateway. It seems to go forever.

I had been dreading it.

But you know what? It felt good. I've been hunting down long hills at home - maybe it helped.

Who knows - but the sea of people sure helped! I didn't have time to worry about feeling tired or hurting. I just absorbed the atmosphere and kept pushing uphill. About 2/3 of the way up I was shocked to realise I was maintaining under 6min 30/km pace. So I used my trusty garmin to make sure I kept pushing it uphill! I felt on top of the world!

The uphill felt good - but the downhill felt better. I just went with the flow and ran. Several times I checked my garmin and I was well UNDER 6min/km pace! That is unheard of for me! I just do not run that fast. It doesn't happen.

I was really tempted to slow myself down - how many times do we hear not to go out hard in the early stages of a fun run? But - my heart rate was managable. I felt fine. I had no pain. My legs were good. I think about then is when I decided to take a crack at this and see how close to 1 hr I could get.

Km 1, 2 and 3 were great. They were over before I knew! At 3km mark it was hilarious to the stream of people heading off to the loos! I mean - we only just started!

I was stll running faster and smoother than I thought possible. Lap 1 (uphill) was a 6"30 km. Lap 2 was 5"44! And lap 3 was 5"48. I think I need to push myself harder in training.

By lap 4 I started wondering if I stood any chance of breaking 30min for 5km for the frst time ever. I thought this goal was a year away at least! I pushed hard ... and got under that 30 min mark! Another sub 6min km lap!

I couldn't believe we were up to 5k and I still felt so strong.

This is where I started struggling to maintain a sub 6min pace.

I really began focussing on my stride, and checking my garmin to bring it down under that 6min/km pace as often as I could.

Km 7 I started tiring - but just a little. I knew we had another big hill at the 8km mark, coming out of the inner city bypass. I had it in my head that I just had to survive that hill, and the rest of the run would be sheer adrenaline to get me to the finish line.

Running through the tunnel of the bypass was not as much fun as I imagined it would be. I think it was that everyone broke into a mad sprint and I really didn't want to stack it at that stage! Or maybe it was the reality of seeing that hill at the 8k mark appear. It may be only 300m long (apparently) but it sure felt long.

That hill was a struggle. I was still trying to push my pace, and I think I should have eased off a bit more. It really took a lot out of me.

The top of the hill was like heaven! Two km to go! I couldn't wait!

These last two km were hard. My legs were tiring but I was so determined. I was still running smoothly though - the improvements in my fitness amazed me.

The entry into the RNA grounds was hilarious. You run through a narrow tunnel and everyone started sprinting for the finish. It reminded me of a friend's story of when he took part in the Running with the bulls!

Crossing that finish line was sheer jubilation!! I knew I was close to that hour - and I knew I had a pb. But most of all - I had pushed myself way beyond my limits and my expectations. This course is crowded (40,000+) and hilly. You aren't MEANT to get a good time and I SMASHED IT!

Finding hubby afterwards was awesome. He ran better than he imagined too. About 41min. But the best thing was we did something I always dreamt of - and we did it together.

And I got to meet some of my fave 12wbt peeps afterwards too!

When a run is good - you feel like a rockstar! I sure felt like one this time!!

It's been almost a year since I began this journey. A journey that began with me taking in excess of 8min to cover 1km, and stopping many times.

Bridge to Brisbane brought tears to me eyes. Who knew just how far you could come in a year if you tried?

Oh - and official time is in. 1:01:03. Not quite under the hour ... but oh so close!

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Insanity!

2011-09-10T02:24:00.001-07:00

Alarms set! See you after bridge to Brisbane tomorrow!!

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Preseason task # 6 kitchen makeover

2011-09-09T19:59:00.001-07:00

Maybe this is why I need to keep doing 12wbt.
Preseason task #6 means at least once every 3 months my fridge, pantry and freezer get cleaned out and sorted.

This round it wasn't really about throwing out bad food. The non12wbt food in this house consisted entirely of two mini packets of tiny teddies. Miss E shares a packet occasionally with two or three friends on ballet days. Not am issue. I don't eat them. Once they are gone they won't be replaced.

The issue was with making sure our fridge was organised and nothing was getting "lost" , going off or getting wasted.

Oh and getting rid of those UFO's ... Unidentified food objects :) . You know ... The science experiments of the house.

Oh and I had a brainstorm. Food rots in our vege crisper. I always forget it's there! So ... i've rehomed all our jars, jams, sauces etc in the vege crisper ...

And have put our fresh produce in the fridge door so it is always the first thing I see, and not getting lost in the depths of the fridge,

Im very interested to see how this works.

So far, so very very good.
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One year

2011-09-09T17:32:00.000-07:00

Facebook reminded me.

It was one year since this before photo was taken.

I was on my way to a concert for Miss 6. I thought I looked pretty good.

I joined up 12wbt at the last moment, dove into my preseason tasks, and my journey began.

One year.

Where are you going to be one year from today?
What are your before and after's going to be?

You still have time.

Your journey can begin today!

12wbt.com

Just Breathe

2011-09-09T17:06:00.000-07:00

Photo by Shawn Rossi

I'm going to tell you the truth.
When the first week of round three's exercise programs were revealed, I felt overwhelmed.
I felt stressed, anxious ... and like i was totally out of my depth.
I didn't think I could do this.

But then I stopped.
I have come so far.
And it seems, if I don't think and don't worry , my body is pretty capable of doing pretty much anything.

So I stopped, paused ... and took time to breathe.

I went through the program one workout, one exercise at a time.
Each exercise I checked. Can I do it? Do I know how? Do we have the equipment?
If the answer to any of these was no I checked Mish's instructions and watched her video links.
9 times out of 10 this calmed my fears.

The last three exercises that I had no clue on, I rocked up to my gym.
I felt silly asking them ... But common sense told me I AM PAYING THEM GOOD MONEY! And this is what they are for!

So - yes it took time - but I know what I am doing in theory.

Now I just need to do it in practise.

Will it all come together perfectly? Probably not. But doing something is better than doing nothing.

Right now I'm sure most 12wbt ers are overwhelmed. Somehow the wait to start is harder than actually doing it.

But stop. Breathe. Use the resources available to you. Ask on the forums. And give it a go.
Don't let paralysis by analysis stop you.

Change is just around the corner.

Truth

2011-09-09T05:14:00.001-07:00

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If you run, want to run, or try to run READ THIS

2011-09-08T19:32:00.001-07:00

Today it is raining. Thankfully ... The new edition of runner's world came in the mail which makes it the perfect day to curl up, drink a coffee and get a few minutes of inspiration.

I read a question and answer in the "ask miles" section that brought tears to my eyes.

If you are a runner, a plodder, or want to run please take the time to read this!

Dear miles
I'm new to running. Why do so many runners dislike being called joggers. David b.

Answer
Jogging implies that you lack passion and commitment, that you're out there on the road in $200 running shoes simply for show that you could take running or leave it ( and often do leave it). Ask any runner, and he or she will tell yiu that we run with passion, we run to push our limits, and to live healthier lives, we run races not because we think we will win but to be members of a larger community. Most important, whether we clock 3-minute or 7-minute kilometres, we don't jog -we run.

October 2011 runner's world

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Wenesday I ran

2011-09-08T18:59:00.001-07:00

Wednesday was a beautiful day.

It was also very very busy.

Somehow I forced myself to find a few spare minutes in the day.
My heart had to run.
It was meant to be easy.
But I went a little harder and it felt awesome.
4km in just over 25min.

By the final km I felt great so I pushed it hard home. My last km average pace was 6:02:13 a km. SO much faster than I normally run! I felt like a rockstar! So glad I ran. So glad I pushed the pace. Some days this running caper is just the very best fun!

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Letting you in on a secret

2011-09-06T20:19:00.000-07:00

Even now ... one year on .. some days are hard.
Yesterday for example. Yesterday I wanted chocolate bad. No idea why ... I just wanted it.
And I'm not talking the small controlled have a few squares and get on with it craving.
I wanted it in bulk.

Yesterday I got to my favourite class - step.
And my heart wasn't in it.

Yesterday I was lucky to get one on one time for free with the pilates instructor to help with my core and stretching - and I was full of the I can'ts.

Last week I was 100% fully decided I hated running and was going to give it up.
Serious.
It didn't feel fun and I didn't feel good enough.

And we won't even talk about my blasted plateau.

But you can't give in.
You are going to have days like that.
Heck - you might sometimes have weeks like that.

All I did was follow the motions.
I still ate well.
I counted my calories.
I went through the motions at training, turned up and gave my all.
I just did what Mish tells me to - no more no less.

And then you get days like today. Days when the sun comes out.
Days when your heart feels free!!

Today is a good day!
Today I ran.
Today I ate well.
Today I was busy and productive and although I'm still not caught up with life I'm on my way.

But most of all I am proud I didn't give in.
Some days you are going to feel down.

These are the days that test us ...
But these are the days that show how far we have come

Size 10 jeans baby!!

2011-09-06T20:10:00.002-07:00

OK - they are target which is definately generous in it's sizing.

And yes - I can still see plenty of areas I can tone up ...

But let's celebrate!!

This time last year my target 18's were TOO SMALL!!! (which I guess made me a 20 but I wouldn't admit it!)

SIZE 10 JEANS BABY!!!!!

Monday done and dusted!

2011-09-05T04:06:00.000-07:00

Our gym doesn't have pump ... But it does have group power.

I haven't been for a while ... The time of day made it hard to get there over winter with miss 6 ... But today the gorgeous spring weather made it easier.

I trained hard, lifted heavy in squats, lunges, and shoulders... And am feeling it now!

What I really loved was catching up with three other local 12wbt girls at the same time!

It is amazing me how much my body is changing ... I may not be losing weight, but I am looking stronger.

I followed up Group Power with zumba.

Love to do this to start a week! Zumba on Monday doesn't even feel like exercise ... Some time I even feel co ordinated now days!

Sss ... Run time!

2011-09-03T18:37:00.001-07:00

Today is father's day! Happy father's day to my amazing dad. One of my fondest memories is seeing him demonstrate trampoline tricks to my daughter last year ... In his 60s! That's how i want to live my life - fit, agile and full of life!!

Happy father's day also to miss e's dad. You rock. You are the king of quality time with her ... She and you always seem to be having adventures. And because of you - fit, healthy, active is what she knows! Happy father's day!

Anyway ... Onto my run. Today is my SSS. In this case it's a super sunday session since saturday was my rest day. I had no plans ... Just knew I wanted to find some hills. No idea on distance. No idea on time.

Right from the start the run felt good. Really good. During the first 3 k I was running a lot faster than I expected. And it felt so strong. I found a new route and was really enjoying the change. Their was still enough cool breeze to make it pleasant. It was great.

Then I went hill hunting. And I found me some good ones.
One question I have is, why do photos of hills always make them seem less steep than the reality?
I'll admit it. This hill beat me. I walked up the last steepest section. But that's ok. Now I have a new challenge. Watch me push hard all the way up in week four!

Right up to 7 k it felt awesome. I thought I could run forever. And then the headwind hit.
But I got through, despite an ever tightening right hamstring. And a twist tp my ankle at the end.
And I felt on top of the world!

It aint pretty ... But if you're still pretty at the end you didn't try hard enough!

My garmin ripped me off 10m! I swear it was 10km! Either way I'm claiming it.

The overall pace is a bit slower, but I'm ok with that. It was a much harder route ... And did I mention those hills??

Bridge to Brisbane .. I feel a whole lot better now! I might be almost ready for you!

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Father's day breakfast ... By miss 6

2011-09-03T14:38:00.001-07:00

For those starting 12wbt next week , and worried about the food being boring or missing out ... Do not fear!

Miss 6 made pancakes for daddy's fathers day breakfast this morning!

The only adaptation we made was to use gluten free flour as daddy is coeliac.
Oh and Miss 6 put toppings on of here choosing.

12wbt buttermilk pancakes! So yum!
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